Mama

Mama

My son I sat tonight as is now our rhythm, in the dark you suckling at my breast. Measured breaths and heartbeat slowing, time stilling and the moment becoming something infinite in my memory. I never understood the beauty of this until you. I’d not nourished your sister in this same way from my body [...]

Behind the Lines

Behind the Lines

My beautiful girl battles some demons at such an early age. Some we don't have a name for just yet but others like anxiety and OCD are very apparent. The difference between her world view and experiences become more and more marked as Noah grows. His lack of fear, pure joy at waking up each [...]

Lazy River Mamas

Lazy River Mamas

A few weeks ago we ended up down in the local gorge for a play with this beautiful mama and her cub. Some days you just need your feet in the water and the soothing words of another beautiful soul who just gets it. Well, she just gets me. We’ve not known each other long [...]

Love, Before You

Love, Before You

Before you, feelings of love went outward. External. A force that came from my heart but that roared out and enveloped. Something I gave to others, gave out like a gift. A tangible ‘item’, a thing. But now you. Now you are here it’s like I’ve found the hidden secret of raw love. This love still [...]

2am

2am

Sometimes, at 2am, I am holding on for dear life. I am one last millisecond away from letting go and being washed away It burns away come the morning light. Every time. Without fail. And I know it will, even while it rages; I know. The edge though is a sharp one. Precarious, teasing, blinding, [...]